Home - Going to bed crushed

I just watched 2 people break up in a show that I watch (Royal Pains) and for some reason it hit home to me especially hard. They were thinking it could be viewed as a summer fling and such, and for the past 3 years I have had that same exact experience. This year I told myself that I am not going to date during the summer, because right when school starts it's a whole different story. It just reminds me of the confusion that always hit me when the relationship never continued. It's saddening how much effort I put into each, yet the future return isn't what it seemed it could be. I just don't know how I feel about relationships now, they just seem so ridiculous; of course it's much different when you are in one. I prayed for my future wife this morning, but I'm not sure I will even notice her. Hmm

Home - Wondering and Frustrated

Today was a productive day, but strange. I filled out my updated Financial Aid Award letter and sent that in with a check for the remainder of my student account balance. I asked Drew to loan me the money so that I could pay that, and I told him that I would pay him back. I also had my In-N-Out interview, which I was really talked up before I even got there. Apparently Danielle Tetreault said I would be the employee hire of the year, so that is something really nice to hear. I have my 2nd interview tomorrow with another lady.

Something that I have learned is that I am a very social gamer. I literally only play games when I’m bored and only with someone else. Now that changes from time to time when I get a new game, then I will focus on that. But for the most part after I have had games long enough to get used to them, I hardly initiate the gaming without someone nearby playing. 

I also think sometimes life can be like a drug. There are certain memories in life that you want to try to achieve again, sorta like druggies who are always after that 1st high feeling. I feel that when I was younger things were better, and they really could have been, but I think I need to shift my mindset sometimes. 

Home - 4th of July

Today was a pretty sweet 4th of July. I went to the Tempe firework show with a group of people. The day started off however by going to John’s house whom is a friend of Drew more than he is with me. It was kinda fun playing volleyball in his pool and just messing around once I got comfortable. It was a different experience though. Then I went to the Hodgins house to see if Kaylee and Kristin wanted to go with me to the Tempe firework show, but they didn’t so I just left about an hour and a half later. I ended up bring home a sunburn though on my shoulders and neck. I was afraid of that, and wasn’t really careful, but it happens to the best of us… especially Irish. The fireworks were great as usual and I’m certainly glad I went.

Home - What happens when I get bored

When I get bored I decide to make videos like this:

Home - Dealing with Integrity

Yesterday’s big-church service message was on integrity in the workplace. The whole time during the service I really thought that I could have knowingly falsified my FAFSA in favor of receiving a Pell grant. Although I could have gotten free money, the spiritual repercussions and the possibly exposure repercussions would have been devastating. I took the step to call Ozark and find out the correct procedure to fix it, and it worked out well. So the verdict is that I am now not eligible for the Pell grant, but that I can sleep better knowing that I am more right with God.

UCYC Jr. High - 1st day

Today is the first day at camp, and it has been a good one. I went mountain biking for the first time since I went with Chris Hedrick and fell right on a cactus. It was fun, but there was a lot of stop and go action going on because of people falling off; I was included in that too. I did go across some tree width bridges and made them 1st try and then a sweet jump at the end. I also got some footage of people going across the last jump.

I saw Nick down at lower camp when we went for breakfast and it was awesome! I also saw the kiddos, Danielle, Angela and Adam Hofmann.

On Thursday our church has the paintball field to ourselves for 4 hours. I totally brought my gun so I’m super stoked.

Summer has been great, but I still don’t have a job and I’m still praying about that; trusting in God every step of the way.

Home - Yesterday was a Great Day

I had a great day yesterday. It was just good. I woke up at 9am and watched a couple hours of Burn Notice on TV then went to donate plasma. I hardly ever watch TV, but since it was on I just watched it. I ended up bringing my Communicating for a Change book with me that I hadn’t started until yesterday and read some really funny things in the first 44 pages. I came home and had KFC with my family and I rode in the Boxter with my mom to get the meal; the ride was really nice. Then I just lounged around I guess and decided to go running at 8:30pm and then came back before the new Burn Notice and Royal Pains show debut. I don’t know what single handedly made my day, but it was probably just doing things different, like reading and actually watching TV that made it significant.