I haven’t updated my blog in awhile, so I figured I’d so now that I have a topic. I am worried about money. This sounds like one of those times that I go through, but it really is. I need to focus on what I NEED rather than what I think I need or just would like to have. I don’t know if I need books for class, I thought today. I saw someone writing in their harmony book in my Life of Christ class today and thought that I might want to do that, which means that I would have to purchase the book. I decided however to check out most of my books that I could, and hope that I can borrow the others from friends so that I can use my last semester here at Ozark. I feel also that I need computer speakers, and a new battery for my car (because it’s dead), and things for school, like new binders and paper. I am just disorganized right now and it frustrates me. Normally I will just go and do what I need to and get it done. I have done that today, but not with needs that are tangible. Lord continue to help me have a mind that is focused on the needs of others, during this time, and not just the ones I choose, but that are in need of friendship, or money, or things that I am holding back. Get me in this mood God. I am not here to learn for myself, but to learn along with others, so that I am a well used vessel that is priceless for someone else. Help me be this to my Mother, help me to be this to my Father, help me to be this to my Brother, Help me to be this for my Grandparents, but most of all Lord help me be this for the people whom I don’t like to associate with and that is out of my comfort zone. I am not better than them, I am the same. Continue to give me passion and mercy for those that are hard to love. Tear down my pride fortress 5 blocks an hour, allow me to give to you what is yours anyway, my life, but without any hindrance, and completely for you. Amen
