Home - Going to bed crushed

I just watched 2 people break up in a show that I watch (Royal Pains) and for some reason it hit home to me especially hard. They were thinking it could be viewed as a summer fling and such, and for the past 3 years I have had that same exact experience. This year I told myself that I am not going to date during the summer, because right when school starts it's a whole different story. It just reminds me of the confusion that always hit me when the relationship never continued. It's saddening how much effort I put into each, yet the future return isn't what it seemed it could be. I just don't know how I feel about relationships now, they just seem so ridiculous; of course it's much different when you are in one. I prayed for my future wife this morning, but I'm not sure I will even notice her. Hmm

Home - Wondering and Frustrated

Today was a productive day, but strange. I filled out my updated Financial Aid Award letter and sent that in with a check for the remainder of my student account balance. I asked Drew to loan me the money so that I could pay that, and I told him that I would pay him back. I also had my In-N-Out interview, which I was really talked up before I even got there. Apparently Danielle Tetreault said I would be the employee hire of the year, so that is something really nice to hear. I have my 2nd interview tomorrow with another lady.

Something that I have learned is that I am a very social gamer. I literally only play games when I’m bored and only with someone else. Now that changes from time to time when I get a new game, then I will focus on that. But for the most part after I have had games long enough to get used to them, I hardly initiate the gaming without someone nearby playing. 

I also think sometimes life can be like a drug. There are certain memories in life that you want to try to achieve again, sorta like druggies who are always after that 1st high feeling. I feel that when I was younger things were better, and they really could have been, but I think I need to shift my mindset sometimes. 

Home - 4th of July

Today was a pretty sweet 4th of July. I went to the Tempe firework show with a group of people. The day started off however by going to John’s house whom is a friend of Drew more than he is with me. It was kinda fun playing volleyball in his pool and just messing around once I got comfortable. It was a different experience though. Then I went to the Hodgins house to see if Kaylee and Kristin wanted to go with me to the Tempe firework show, but they didn’t so I just left about an hour and a half later. I ended up bring home a sunburn though on my shoulders and neck. I was afraid of that, and wasn’t really careful, but it happens to the best of us… especially Irish. The fireworks were great as usual and I’m certainly glad I went.